You know, I think, in that moment, all it would have taken is for someone to put their arm around me and say to me
“You must be so frightened and hurting real bad”.
And at that point I think I might have broken down and cried. In all my brokenness to feel so abjectly unsafe and withdrawn over something so trivial.
And perhaps the lesson for me is that my safe place needs to be found inside me rather than attaching it to people or places that can never give me the safe place, the grounding, I need.
I can not control the world or ask it to keep me safe.